I'm starting to feel the same way about sex.
If I had been born without a sex drive I'd probably be a millionaire, or a great scientist or artist, by now.
I cannot believe how much time and effort I expended chasing women.
And yes, every now and then, I still hear the "come hither" voice.
Marijuana is no big deal. It is neither a spiritual awakening, nor an oblivion and little death. It is just a form of of innocent recreation with little or no long term benefit or drawback. The closest thing I can compare it to is being addicted to really good music.