Oh Eri...bless you. I prepare a full fledged meal for everyone every night. I rarely eat with them, but sit and drink a cup of coffee and chat with them. I usually have eaten an hour before. Salads with the produce that is grown these days is very tasteless, so I treat myself to occasional pre mades from the store. I have been fixing myself peanut butter and sugar free jelly on 15 grain bread, with a few almonds on the side. Whoppee shit.
I started taking Ambien again, and I get the famous Ambien eats about an hour after bed. I go downstairs and proceed, without compunction, and barely aware of what I am doing, to eat the refined sugar that I swore would never pass these lips. I am up to 153 now. *sigh*