That is a perfect definition of self-pity. Everyone experiences self-pity, it's very close to self-love, and it's normal. You were screwed over, and it was not about you. It wasn't personal, there are people in our lives who aren't, shall we say, exactly well put together.

And not only that, it was years and years ago. It's irrelevant to todays living. If the $5 is that important, if it will help you let go of that issue, I'll see that you get the $5.

The only way we can rid ourselves of that which is unproductive and uncomfortable is to recognize that it does exist. Denial perpetuates that which is denied.

Let me know about the $5. That would be a cheap way to clear away that garbage from the past if it would work. I suspect it wouldn't.