A book suggestion for you...
Why Does He Do That?: Inside the Minds of Angry and Controlling Men by Lundy Bancroft. The author has 15 years of experience dealing with abusive men. It will help you understand why you think the way you do and what it does to the people around you. As if you care.
And for your hordes of sequential "girlfriends", there's It's My Life Now: Starting Over After an Abusive Relationship or Domestic Violence by Meg Kennedy Dugan and Roger Hock. Because what you described is abuse. As if you care.