>"the last time I held a security clearance .....was pretty dull.....I wouldn't have to kill you if you learned my secrets, they would probably just bore you to death. "

LOL

Well, I enjoyed your description of your dance with the Devil. I know wherefore you are coming from.

>"the world is shades of grey, not black and white."

Then you must have enjoyed that short YouTube clip of Bill O'Reilly dancing around David Letterman with his black n white story. (If anyone has Parkinson's, it's Bill O'Reilly.)

>" If you don't understand this, your loyalties will be guided by your heart, not your head, and the first time you are disappointed or lied to you'll switch sides like a fickle, scorned lover. '

I can understand pacing yourself, and being prepared. There's no rules in the game, no way to prevent betrayal. I know some look for retribution, or culpability, some are victims while others play with it like it a mouse.