Assume you are right? Knowing you suck, gives you the opportunity to examine what that means and if you don't like it ---change it.

You can re-invent yourself and work to become someone you like better. Start by going to a gym...go for corpore sano and work that into a mens sano, also. Three months at weights will be the curative for the three dry years of female interest. You can control your physical projection and build an attractive body.

Look at the abilities you do have. You have gotten blood out of the stones on this board. Look at all the good vibes that have been offered here. You must have been doing something right to elecit the response you have.

Just spend more time doing those things that will make you like you better. Be good to yourself.