I'm not being hysterical. I'm happy with the way my life has turned out. In spite of the fact that I haven't always gotten my own way, and that things haven't been organized the way I would have preferred, I've still been able to meet most of my own personal goals and learned to accept that there were some I couldn't. I am at peace with myself. I don't have to prowl the net looking for ammunition to use on my enemies. I don't need to be a crusader for righteousness.

If your mythology were so obvious you wouldn't find it so hard to convince anyone else. And if you weren't so unsure of it yourself, you wouldn't be so desperate to get everyone to hear you.

Listen to yourself. Everything that's wrong with the world is their fault. If they would only leave you alone you could be free. They want to take what you've earned and give it away to those who don't deserve it. Its always about those inferior, weak, corrupt beings who have somehow usurped and perverted and befouled the natural order of things, the order you represent. If they would only go away everything could be wonderful again. Doesn't any of this sound familiar? Only you seem to recognize the benefits of freedom, liberty and choice. Everyone else actually wants to be a slave. Narcisssism and Paranoia.

Do you really believe its as easy as a choice between paradise and Bolshevism, and that there is no middle ground or even other alternatives? That all history can be explained as a great struggle between the virtuous and the evildoers?

If that's the case, why can't you get anyone to listen? Is it because they control the press, the universities, the arts, the intelligentsia, even the sciences, all the institutions of the society except the one you think you could excel at, if it only weren't for their treachery. Yes THEY, the forces of darkness you have identified as the sources of all evil, won't let you, they are all out to get you.

Your view of the world is a grotesque caricature of reality brought about by your inability to reconcile yourself to your own problems except by seeing yourself as the victim of a conspiracy. It would be a pathetic and laughable fantasy except there is a good chance that those who cynically exploit this delusion may soon have total political power.