re: Whether hate, fear or simple repulsion...
From having known both personally and professionally quite a few homosexuals I've found the only paradigm for understanding them is to regard them and their relationships as precisely analogous to heterosexual. I've found their attitudes toward the opposite sex as identical to others who can view humans as potential friends rather than sex objects.
I believe your post is as close to an adolescent stereotypical, locker-room view as possible. And as divorced from reality. To be honest, I'd ask a moderator to delete it twere I you - it's not only embarrassing to you, it's unbecoming to the HZ.
And then I'd shut up on the subject until I'd lived some more, learned some more, and understood something at all.
Arf