advice
You are a quitter.
I freakin FLUNKED freshman calculus. But instead of packing it in and quiting Engineering school, I kept at it. Never a super calculus student, and therefore never a scientist (sigh), I still managed to plow thru. Eventually got a graduate degree. In real life, I've designed many successful products. They all really worked. If you quit, you lose. Apparently it still bothers you. Instead of posting here and there and taking abuse from hardass bastardos like me, go DO something about it.
-philw (Yes, the universe does hate you)