And a kind one. Investigation used to be my passion for many years. I spent a lot of money, travelled a lot of miles and met a lot of people. But I also the saw manipulation from the government, which (if you get into anything that's classified) takes you down another path.
The underbelly of "national security", the red herrings, the denials and the out and out character assassinations of those who get involved. Often with deadly consequences.
I saw friends of mine harrassed by the Powers that Be, so WHY the manipulation?

What do they have to hide?
And when researchers started bickering among themselves, that's when I stepped out of active investigation as far as publishing was concerned. They're all like dogs with a piece of meat, and if you want to stay safe, you stay away from the raw meat. I prefer watching it from the sidelines now, thank you. And I still have a handful of friends and researchers with their fingers on the pulse of this, so I'm not missing much but the fracas.

Only time will tell if the New Testament is being written or we're all going under martial law by a planned invasion by some nefarious group who has found a way to make us THINK we are being invaded.

None of this has been easy for me Tom. It has complicated my life tremendously, something I wouldn't wish on anybody. But I also know it falls upon a fine line and there's planty of times youi just have to get off that tightrope.